All the sudden

Okay, here I am at work trying to honestly earn my peanuts { my boss thinks I'm over paid}

when all the sudden.................Nothing comes to mind............my kids come to mind............the boyfriend comes to mind..............and somehow I know it is all related or relative??

My second son recently got released from the county jail, not a proud moment to say the least, but it is what it is. He has to do work project and report to probation and get a job and help pay his rent where he and the girl {and her son} live and so on and so on.

Of course he also has to stay away from the people he refers to as his homeboys.

You see when my son has no choice but to follow the rules he does great. ie: group home, juvi, jail. He even said its because he knows if he doesn't he will face consequences. What I don't understand is if you know this thewn why can't you do just as good when you are free on the streets so to speak??? For some reason my boy seems to forget how it is in jail.

Of course right now he has been out for almost two weeks and I must admit so far so good. He has actually broke his personal record of keeping right. He has turned in almost a dozen job applications even. So, from where I stand I see a young man trying to do the next right thing!!!

I have a long history of enableing my boys simply by being there when they need money or a ride or something to eat. Even when they were out there running amuk.

I have been told again & again to stop. To tell him no help from me untill you get right. I agree but common sense tells me that while he is trying to do the next right thing I should be supportive. I know I should draw the line somewhere. But, I don't think it is a bad thing to enable him when he doing all the things required of him.

We all need a little support every now and then and we all need to know that our family is there for us. It is easy for the mind to say @*#% it when we face a set back or feel let down. But if I can be there to say"right on" or "I'm proud of you" or " lets go have a burger to talk about your progress" then I belive it is less likely he will let those @*#& it times bring him down.

Sure my boys have done a lot of things that are dishonorable and disespectful but I also know GOD forgives them so who am I or you not to .

We all deserve a second, third, fourth chance. If not most of us would have been finished log ago.